हाम्रो देश

हाम्रो देश
रास्ट्र प्रमुख बदलिए
नेता बदलिए
पशुपतिका बादर भन्दा बढ़ी सवासद
एका एक संसद माँ पुगे
कांग्रेस एमाले भये
एमाले माओबादी भये
माओबादी फोरम भये
फोरम जनतान्त्रिक भये
जनतान्त्रिक कोबरा भये
आतंककारी रास्ट्रबादी भये
गोठालाहरू राष्ट्रपति भये
राजा प्रजा भये
नाम मात्रको नया नेपाल बनाये
जाती जाती माँ फाटो ल्याए
हरुवाहरू हाई पोस्ट माँ
क क रा नजान्नेहरू पनी मन्त्रिमंदलमा
सी डी ओ हरुले झापड़ पाए
सुजाताहरूले पापड़ पाए
जंगलका सहर तीर
नारायण हिटी का नागार्जुन तीर
के भयो त्यस भन्दा बढ़ी
आखिर सधै नेतालाई मस्ती
जनता लाई सास्ती
युबा जानेबुझेका सबै परदेश
मित्रजन यही हो हाम्रो देश
हामी गौरब साली नेपालीको
गणतांत्रिक देशमा
नेतालाई १ करोड्को पजेरो
जनतालाई छाक टारन अप्ठेरो
पानी,बत्ती ,सड़क अस्ताब्यस्त
नेतालाई स्वित्ज़रलैंड बनाइदिन्छोऊ
भन्दै भासन छाटनमई मस्त
धार्मिक सहिस्नुता तहस नहस
दिनहु जतियताका बहस
ऐ कलापत्थर्मा बैठक बस्नेहरू !?
हारेर जित्नेहरू
बिदेसिसमु झु क्नेहरू
सकी नसकि भुक्नेहरू
अब त केही गरंन
मलाई भोली पनी म नेपाली हू भन्नु छ
स्वित्ज़रलैंड ,सिगापुरका नाटक हैन
नेपाली वास्ताबिकता बन्नू छ
ऐ हारेर जित्नेहरू
बिदेसिसमु झुक्नेहरू
सकिनसकी भुक्नेहरू
अब त केही गरंन
जनता आहत भये तिमिहरुदेखी
कालापथर हैन जनता का घर दैलो
देखने गर
अरुको भर पर्न छाडेर आफ्नै खुट्टामा
टेकने गर
रस्त्रियताका गीत
लेखने गर
गरीब जनता दुख पीड़ा
छेकने गर
ऐ सकिनसकी भुक्नेहरू
अब त केही गर !!!!!!!!!!!!?????????
एन .पि .घिमिरे (बियोग)
१९ दिसम्बर ,फिनलैंड

The changed :In negative way

I just dont know what is better and what is worse? i just dont know what is better and what is worse? i really dont know what to do and what not to do?its always misery and its always grief i cant stop it there should to be red traffic sign always infront of me there to be the word Relax ringing in my ear .i have nothing difficult though i am always paniking always though i dont do any work my pains always i really dont know what has happened? i am not what i am used to be i dont fell what i used to feel the world has completely changed for me it really has changed and i dont know where it will take may be to worst may to best may be hell and can be to heaven i cant say anything,i am unknown.The loneliness while amongst lot of friends the strange feeling in my own room,the things which i used to do almost everyday seems very strange for me ya really strange .It has been long time i havent laugh with the inner feelings i try to laugh my friends but something stops me but i really dont know what stops.It is kind of different feelings i am experiencing which i think very rarely people can exeperience.Its tranmission of things and i think its kind of different feelings or scares .It scares me that where it is taking me towards.Innerely i am feeling i am being matured day by day with miracle things but if i am with someone of if such feelings come into my mind i feel like i loose everything i have nothing left this is the way i should pass my days.The life is full of happiness and sadness ,misery and pleasure but what if the feelings of happiness doesnt and never come from inside ye ander ki baat hey feelings nahi ata hey to mey hasna kaisey..I used to watch lot of sad tragic movies but nowadays i cant watch even short scene where people are in trouble i dont know even its normal thing it hurts me innerly i feel like i am myself in such situation.If i watch some comedy scenes i laugh sometime and after sometime my feelings come like it speaks to me why am i laughing what i have to laugh?It stops me from laughing and i start to become emtional i dont know why?.May no one has noticed till now or i think no one cares how the person has changed and why should ?.I feel something like i have experienced it in my past life and some strange things,some romantic things comes like continuously i cant stop them i feel really different with thos e feelings and sometime i enjoy with them sometime i am like with some famous actor or with famous artist like this and that.I have those symtoms like not any disease have and those scares me a lot i am surviving with the knowledge that nothing has happened to me and telling myself that i am fine .It gives me torture sometimes that why i am not laughing where others laugh and i am not enjoying what others enjoyand why iam always gloomy and sad though there is no reason to be sad .I can fully enjoy my life,i can laugh ,i can make girl friend, i can go to disco drink ,have fun i can do that all i have everything what i need but i dont feel like. I used to think like someday i will have my own job ,monthly salary,my own room,computer,and many more other things used to be my desire which i have now but i dont feel like i have my something mine.My feeling is like this that someone has provided this facilities for me .
I have very good friends here they are really good ,helpful,polite i never used to have such close friends before but why i am not close to them ,why i cant make the friendship with them because i am weak ,weak in a sense that my feelings just stop me i dont know what the hell has hapened with me??????????? I am not like this my friends i feel sad myself that how i become like a person who born with gloomy,lazy and unhappy mood.I used to make others to laugh a lot,i used to make others happy i used help others ,i used to tell jokes ,singing songs etc etc…i was very open and friendly.Someone might arise the question here that I am with negative attitude,i am anxious,depressed,psychological sickness or some other problems but i can assure you that i have nothing like that though i have some physical pain and disbalance now but it doesnt efffect for anything.The main thing is i dont express my feelings i just make the burden inside and it is very heavy for me to carry now.The way i think is vastly different than others the easy thing i take from complicated way ,the simple thing hurts me and simple things make me so joyful also.
I get panic for so small thing some of you might laugh at me when i say i start shaking when i meet some friends,my muscle get strained and i just cant talk properly when someone calls me.When i have to present something in the class my chest become tight i become breathless and feelings of unsteadiness ,i cant form any sentences and so on.I have 1 hour job but it always gives me tention like oh i have to go for work this time i see time 20-25 times.I had started giving speech when i was in class 4 in the public because i used be a first boy in the class and there used to be parents meeting and so and first boy of every class should speak there i was good enough,i used to be a good anouncer in class 8 to 10.I have won the singing competition in college when i was in 12 .I used to handle difficult ,difficult thing because i grown up in a poor family you know the struggle to join hand and mouth ,one has to do a lot to be able to eat something.The greatest mistake for everyone is self awareness ,when it is limited its ok but when there is too much then it effects really.Being so conscious is bad for everyone and it has ruined my life .

To be continued....! Biyog November

jaba tyo din

सूर्य चम्किलो भई उदाउनेछ

आकाश उज्यालो हुनेछ

पालुवाहरू पलाउनेछन

चराहरू चिर्बिराउनेछन

पाखा पखेरामा खुसिकागीतहरु गुन्जनेछन

जबनिले प्रीत पाउनेछ

गीतले संगीत पाउनेछ

धैर्यताले बिश्राम पाउनेछ

पर्र्खाई समाप्त हुनेछ

जब त्यों दिन आउनेछ

जब त्यों दिन अउनेछ

बेहोशी मन जोषमा बदलिनेछ

निराशाहरू हराउनेछन

आट साठ गाठ सहित आउनेछ

उराठ´हराउनेछ

मस्तिस्कले चरम आनंदको महसुश गर्नेछ

मुटुले आफ्नो गति लिनेछ

छातिमा सितालताको आभास हुनेछ

जब त्यों दिन आउनेछ

जब त्यों दिन आउनेछ

बियोग: २ दिसम्बर २००९

The Human Nature

My Explanation of Plato"s "The Allegory Of The Cave"
"Our nature is enlightened or unenlightened - Behold!human beings living in an underground den,which has a mouth open towards the lights and reaching all along the den ,here they have been from there childhood ,and have their legs and necks chained so they can not move ,and they can only see before them ,being prevented by the chains from turning round their heads.Above and behind them a fire is blazing at a distance "